Dinner & Diatribes

[Verse 1] You see, you're just a waste of time hidden behind a pretty face And if I was making you mine, how much of my heart are you gon' break? I'm stumblin' in it and out of all this love to find my way I'm sick of you breakin' me down, now all I've found is empty space And I'm searchin', I'm hurtin', I'm workin', I'm tryna prove to y'all that I'm worth it I'm here to show you, music can be so much deeper then surface I'm nervous, the verses I'm spittin' for y'all never sound perfect I'm learnin' that workin' a nine-to-five was never my purpose, I'm certain How can you tell me that I stand above the rest? That would mean that I'd be standing on the guy you choose next See, I would wait, now it's too late, you walked away from the best It's up to you to wear the weight of that regret like a vest And it's hard, I'm stuck here tryin' to follow up my kindest regards I've been staring at this fuckin' blank page for twenty-four hours I'm goin' crazy, or maybe that's what they made me Or maybe I'm sick of fake, see I was dumb to think that one girl could save… me I should be saving myself I can barely afford my rent, that got me questioning wealth My sister's really really sick, that got me questioning health I wanna save the world, but couldn't save her from herself, damn Now she's laid up in the ICU That made me realize all the fake shit that I see through That made me realize all the power in an "I love you" We would pray everyday, hopin' that you came to We've come through the trenches, I'm set on spreading a message I'm staring up at the sky and I'm praying for my ascension I'm countin' all of my blessings, you're countin' all of your mentions See, focus on what you love, not this drug we're calling attention, that's real So who's fuckin' with me? [Chorus] So tell me what I am right now (right now) Now tell me what I've got to lose (got to lose) You try your best at breakin' me down (breakin' me down) Well, you ain't never been in my shoes, shoes, shoes I'm tired of bein' used, used, used So take me as I am, I don't wanna lose 'Cause you know that if I'm eating, y'all are eating too This is dinner… for two [Verse 2] See, I've been stuck searchin' for motivation, probably in all the wrong places Like girls, girls, girls, and girls, you see, I'm searchin' in basic I want someone to build with me, not just someone to take it I want someone to feel with me, not just someone to fake it I'm over this fake shit, still worried sick if I'll make it Now everybody has a dream, see, I'm just willing to chase it Let's take a look around your cubicle, see talent that's wasted This is your life, it's your life, so don't just copy and paste it Now, open your mind, but not your legs, give 'em the mind, but not the head This is your story, you decide how it's gon' finally be read And these are lyrics that I think about late night in my bed If I never pursue my passion, then I'm already dead So when they try to break us down, that's when we stand up We were the kids who weren't supposed to win, so they can't stand us I'm standin' on the stage, lights glarin', people starin' with their hands up They told me I could never be the man, and now I am—what? So who's fuckin' with me? [Chorus] So tell me what I am right now (right now) Now tell me what I've got to lose (got to lose) You try your best at breakin' me down (breakin' me down) Well, you ain't never been in my shoes, shoes, shoes I'm tired of bein' used, used, used So take me as I am, I don't wanna lose 'Cause you know that if I'm eating, y'all are eating too This is dinner… for two Tell me what I am right now (right now) Now tell me what I've got to lose (got to lose) You try your best at breakin' me down (breakin' me down) Well, you ain't never been in my shoes, shoes, shoes I'm tired of bein' used, used, used So take me as I am, I don't wanna lose 'Cause you know that if I'm eating, y'all are eating too This is dinner… for two