Concealed The Outro

My father used to tell me I was nothing more than worthless A stupid motherfucker that would live without a purpose Put my thoughts upon a page so I could try to prove him wrong And every time I write a song I reminisce about the pain that I'm repressing in my brain so I don't have to feel alone And I've been living with depression so I wonder how this shit really begins I'm comfortable with the thoughts of vision and now it is I've been working on this record for a minute Still I feel like nothing that I do is good enough My insecurities are creeping in so they would seep in to the music Ain't it funny when other people see your pain as amusing? Abusing many a pill and numbing the way I feel 'til the point of my reality's the furthest thing from real The only thing I ever needed was a little piece of love and I couldn't find that in people so I would seek it in drugs And I wanted to be the greatest instead I'm facing the truth But the fact of the matter is that I'm losing it what's the use And I know I'm sounding repetitive lack the lust for living I pray that I be forgiven , I say let’s take a picture For sinners to get the sentiment a critical acclaim to explaining it wasn't evident A premonition of my early death I'll make it prevalent malevolent confessing And if I was down and out I can't sell my soul to be relevant Gallivanting around like 'Fuck I'm finally free I'm ignoring all of my problems I said I'd bury them deep ' But I'm actually terrified and my paranoia was verified cause I just realized I don't wanna make it to twenty-five A suicidal psychopath, a schizophrenic kinda guy that's looking for your empathy hoping that you'll remember me The message I provided collided within the melody A metamorphosism reliving giving debauchery The resurrection of a savior coming out of Nazareth where you could catch a laceration and a crucifixion Under what condition d'you make the decision moving like it's in a mild position living at the bottom wishing I was with it Couldn't tell the difference So tired of giving the false opinions My faith in the book that was written by other people They probably wrote with agendas So every role was intended for anyone to follow Attention, I got a testament Just like the book of Mark And I'm sparking a revolution My story a revelation Amazing, I'd rather save it, debate it Everything on my mind While I was taking a mental picture OK, so my train of thought is evasive I'm faded within my memory From a daily addiction of always staying sedated and claiming I wanna make it I'm nothing more than a follower No apologies for it Enforcing my fucking happiness Don't know what I believe and I'm seething and barely breathing I was thinking of positivity The possibility that I'll be sane is like a fallacy I got a way to go and I'm showing you people gradually I been imagining a better life and then I contradict it The consequence of feeling like a loser with no confidence And I've been all alone, I'm tryna find the source of inner peace I suffocate the beat until the flow has been consumed I strangulate that mother fucker, turn the tune and turn the night maroon And if I'm being honest, I think I'm losing my passion I'm passing on opportunities Giving in to distraction The problem's that I've been having is all of it's a facade It's quantity over quality Profit over the product But shit if it makes a dollar Who gives a fuck if it's garbage? We'll get it radio play and then now make it a classic And take a nigga with talent that's about as big as a grain of salt And put him on a pedestal He'll eventually catapult to perpetual force The actual result distracting They forgot that mother fucker was never decent at rapping They reminisce on the past and there ain't nobody original But niggas stealing styles and never giving their credit Accepting that shit's pathetic A hypothetical pondering I put it on a paper for some people I'm being honest with Abolishing a novice and murdering his accomplice A complicated affair with the notorious hitter These habitual liars supplying a lot of ignorance It's all about an image, so everyone's irresponsible And if you got a positive message then it's impossible to overcome the current plan and rap a better obstacle It's illogical to think that The future is looking brighter When money comes into play than the vision will get distorted Cause you were forced into feeling by acting out of your character You lost your sense of pride that's inside Don't that embarrass ya? Barely making it now when you're coming up from the rubble Refuse to be in the rut Ain't no need for an introduction My shit is really disgusting It's different and impeccable Intelligent and highly respectable You're susceptible to this lyrical giant A tyrant acting defiant I'd rather do this alone So mother fuck an alliance aligning with preservation To practice my dedication by defecating the delicate Relegated with delegates to give them rigamortis Supported within a deficit Celebrated a reverence Televising my decadence From years of destitution The resolution's irrelevant It's gotten to the point where I can see that nothing's real at all It's leaving me appalled and I'm embarrassed I will get involved to mental regression for I have yet to evolve Got to find a spot to put my aggression before I'm gone But the pain that I feel has lasted so long So by the end of this song I'm praying for my desire cause I'm refusing to fake it I’d rather reform than retire so my generation remedial I really can't believe this shit is happening In any lie, I’m surrounded by fucking geniuses And you gotta be kidding me The only thing I was meant to be is the dopest mother fucker that people will probably never see And if I never make it then I'm fulfilling the prophecy Everything that I write has been centered around my honesty