I'll Get By

I used to listen to my life I was so put together I chose what I wanted to be in that age of chasing sand The age of believing in everything But I couldn't save you I couldn't save what was taken away And I'm still singing, and you still can't stay You "loved life," and those words have lasted I just wish I would have had ears for more than what you said Because I still feel the lack long after Such a light body, such a quiet gait leaving behind the weight of the world I'll always think it was too early to lose your shine I guess the means that ends us means nothing I just hope that it's the peace we all need Because I could love and drown in your God damned smile lines But I think I burnt up watching you rallying to stay alive And I guess that's fine It seems we all get sick We all die in some no name hospital with the same colored walls And I guess that's fine But I want to swallow, I want to stomach, I want to live It's been a rough while and some days are worse than others There's no proper way to feel, no mirth, no levity, no amazing grace Just a flame on a lake floating away I can't let you lay I want you to know, I'm learning patience against my will I want you to know, I’ll get by, always barely scraping With just a hunger, with just a heart apart It's a hell of a thing