Rivers and Roads with LYRICS!!!

Hanging my head Hands and feet over the bridge With vehicles passing by Depressed with c ptsd attached to the current thought train I'm looking past the fact (that)blurring vision keep's getting to me Got angst as i look down At the river rushing Not a noun or name called Everytime i tried to ask for help They said "grab a flask"or "you've become soft" I started drinking to numb this hell I fell beyond healing I believe within My personal state of thinking I run They claim to the context behind everything Apparently they can read like telekinesis I write music to cope Need a few feet of rope Or Two hit's of dope (as in smoke not hard stuff) Don't be saying "your scaring me" I suppose me walking,screaming to Some suppose if higher power Even though i'm agnostic (I'm still spiritual but also a skeptic and always open minded) (it) might bring me back (the)residue from from the few downer's (is dripping down the faucet) It keep's shifting within my vision Ounce of louder will keep me sane for an hour Or a couple week's (and) fucking thief energy (has) got me sad I'm attacked I ask for peace 24/7 Waiting for a voice Not a thing is passed (and) where is your letter? Now my voice is Muffled like a suppressor But i'm a gun and Deep down you never let me speak No matter what I have to retreat (meaning)wave the flag And surrender Cause if i stay in the room I'll decay hearing you spewing ignorance Or I'll raise my voice Cause I'm annoyed (and) I got a temper (the reason I'm upset" And it's due to the fact that your a know it all So I will walk down the road (It's) my choice On the straight path of this highway Off a flask looking over the railing Rain cloud's hover I'm smothered No bluff or lie Slung out of my mouth My lung's are in doubt Of continuing on from smoking pack's of cigarettes Marlboro light's fyi Young 20 I'm meant to be with my ending Storm's on it's way Any minute It could be hailing It is internally inside for me Cause in your eye's I'm always failing Not conforming when I know my moral compass My head's hanging over (and) you know I might plummet Some thing's are wrong Got reasonable doubt like j hova And you know that things are plural Starring at my demise It's a hopeless plea Impaired and (this) divided crisis Can't you see within my iris? I Need to be deceased Am I right? I'm begging you please Shake me or slam my head Into this dashboard since this crash course is what i ask for Because this torture Is more than anything that anyone could bear (meaning no one could handle this type of arguing because the stress just like I can't handle it due to their cognitive dissonance about being in the wrong) That's why I'm hanging my head hands and feet over the bridge With vehicle's passing by depressed with ptsd Attached to the current thought train Got poetic justice Not Kendrick (Kendrick shout out reference and I love Kendrick Lamar"s music too) Even though he's a G.O.A.T With each timid lyric i put on the track Go ahead and squish my heart Leave me deceased as I depart and leave Not a tear heard when it touches the dead cold floor No bends or folds still I'm not intact in war No drill Learned my lesson River rushing I'm depressed and drowning Swept in the current state of pain Rain finally fall's I'm all alone Death not postponed Young 20 (is) meant to be murdered with his own hand Love my fam Drugs in hand As they say if time is like money Then fuck this currency And current time